Raw

when i said my body recognizes nothing but you
i meant it. nothing.
i havent had an orgasm in two weeks.
hot. pulsing. flushed.
with absolutely no release.

i fell asleep thinking of you a few days ago
and as i fell my heartbeat increased.
my breathing intensified and then
i saw you. in front of me.
smiling.
free.
but it was only a dream.

we must do something about this pushing
avalanche of need and anticipation.
we must surrender to it.
to each other.
because it is starting to make me sick.
keeping all of this energy inside.

what was that glint in my eyes
when you told me that you wanted to
rape me.
i know you saw it.

i saw you see it.

in the dark brooding shadow of your eyes
i see an animal.
carnivorous. wild. lurking.
stalking out your prey.

i see a caged man
screaming.

in the clear blue reflecting pools of mine
i want to tell you,
that though i am not easily ensnared,
when i look at you
i think
you may as well plunge your hand into my chest
rip my heart out
and eat it.

i think

we may as well
drown in each other, shutting out everything else.
and set our inner demons free.

Jehova has Remembered, Blossoms

working, existing, watching time passing,
all the while thinking of you.

i thirst for your touch, the completing unyeilding
beauty that you are.

i hunger for your kiss, it is primal, it is raw. there

is no explaination for the depleting feeling
i am left in without it.

i am starving for your embrace. the enclosing,
encircling
wonder of being with you. inside you.

i want you. nothing makes sense, nothing seems real,
but this.

want.
here.
now.

spitting fire on my charcoaled soul, the strange
beauty
of you and i together only
arrests me.

completes me.

and in the waking dawn of my sorrow set free
i entreat you. please have pity,

on the enormous predicilation of my heart
the unpredictable frenzy of my mind
the expanded state of my soul

jehovah has remembered
you are of blossoms.
you are new life.
you are of god.

pure.
free.
love.