OKC reaction to stormydepth
After months of cheeky, ambiguous profile writing, and many, many (completely unsuccessful) dates, I'm going to try and put a little substantive information here about who I am, what I'm looking for and where I'd like to take this little journey called okcupid.
I am an American-born Persian girl. I have a lot of personality. I am a seeker. I am a creator. I am a thinker. I have an unquenchable desire to learn ever more about myself, and about all the strange twists and turns of humanity that surround me. I possess an uncompromising degree of curiosity and commitment to the truth... whatever that is, which as any truth seeker knows is a subjective and shifting thing. Even so, I don't forgive a lack of desire to know, discover and act from whatever that space is for you, lightly. If you're the sort that prefers comfort to reality, who willingly participates in the complex web of lies and delusion that most of this world suffers from - please please please do not talk to me.
I am complicated. Sorry simple, stupid lovers, but I come that way. I see so many shades of gray in this life and in myself that I don't understand how so many people can act like they don't exist. I don't hide this under some pretty blanket called fun and easy. I can be a lot of fun, but I am not easy. I am not for the faint of heart. I have run off many would be and existing lovers by asking them the hard questions of life, and really.. that's OK. Because I want someone strong. Strong enough to debate without getting bent, strong enough to handle me, and whatever beauiful madness we create together.
Repeat: I am not easy. I'm explicitly saying to anyone perusing my profile for a quick or casual lay to please get lost. I have had enough stupid casual sex in my life to realize its fucking disgusting, the intense dishonor we engage in by participating in this kind of 'connection', as though it is normal and OK. I am not in that space -- in body or mind AT ALL, so do not talk to me if you are. It'll be a perfectly reasonable response to any solicitation of mine to say that you are a casual fucker, which will have me hide you right away and never bug you again.
I am fiercely independent, and very protective of my freedom. I am not dying to be in a relationship; to be honest, they scare me a little. But I do want to build something beautiful with someone a bit like me. I want to create and discover and love and fuck and explore and expand and energize and do all the things that lovers do. I am very romantic, and I'm also very feminine. All in a very self-constructed way. As opposed to blindly doing as they told me.
I take a lot of pride in my oddities, and my rebellions... from a very young age I stood out, and learned very early on that the rules actually don't matter at all. The only thing that matters to me is authenticity. And that's a very conscious choice. It takes heart, bravery, courage to decide who you are, to see it, to act from it.
This is who I am, and this is who I want.
I am an American-born Persian girl. I have a lot of personality. I am a seeker. I am a creator. I am a thinker. I have an unquenchable desire to learn ever more about myself, and about all the strange twists and turns of humanity that surround me. I possess an uncompromising degree of curiosity and commitment to the truth... whatever that is, which as any truth seeker knows is a subjective and shifting thing. Even so, I don't forgive a lack of desire to know, discover and act from whatever that space is for you, lightly. If you're the sort that prefers comfort to reality, who willingly participates in the complex web of lies and delusion that most of this world suffers from - please please please do not talk to me.
I am complicated. Sorry simple, stupid lovers, but I come that way. I see so many shades of gray in this life and in myself that I don't understand how so many people can act like they don't exist. I don't hide this under some pretty blanket called fun and easy. I can be a lot of fun, but I am not easy. I am not for the faint of heart. I have run off many would be and existing lovers by asking them the hard questions of life, and really.. that's OK. Because I want someone strong. Strong enough to debate without getting bent, strong enough to handle me, and whatever beauiful madness we create together.
Repeat: I am not easy. I'm explicitly saying to anyone perusing my profile for a quick or casual lay to please get lost. I have had enough stupid casual sex in my life to realize its fucking disgusting, the intense dishonor we engage in by participating in this kind of 'connection', as though it is normal and OK. I am not in that space -- in body or mind AT ALL, so do not talk to me if you are. It'll be a perfectly reasonable response to any solicitation of mine to say that you are a casual fucker, which will have me hide you right away and never bug you again.
I am fiercely independent, and very protective of my freedom. I am not dying to be in a relationship; to be honest, they scare me a little. But I do want to build something beautiful with someone a bit like me. I want to create and discover and love and fuck and explore and expand and energize and do all the things that lovers do. I am very romantic, and I'm also very feminine. All in a very self-constructed way. As opposed to blindly doing as they told me.
I take a lot of pride in my oddities, and my rebellions... from a very young age I stood out, and learned very early on that the rules actually don't matter at all. The only thing that matters to me is authenticity. And that's a very conscious choice. It takes heart, bravery, courage to decide who you are, to see it, to act from it.
This is who I am, and this is who I want.
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