Raw

when i said my body recognizes nothing but you
i meant it. nothing.
i havent had an orgasm in two weeks.
hot. pulsing. flushed.
with absolutely no release.

i fell asleep thinking of you a few days ago
and as i fell my heartbeat increased.
my breathing intensified and then
i saw you. in front of me.
smiling.
free.
but it was only a dream.

we must do something about this pushing
avalanche of need and anticipation.
we must surrender to it.
to each other.
because it is starting to make me sick.
keeping all of this energy inside.

what was that glint in my eyes
when you told me that you wanted to
rape me.
i know you saw it.

i saw you see it.

in the dark brooding shadow of your eyes
i see an animal.
carnivorous. wild. lurking.
stalking out your prey.

i see a caged man
screaming.

in the clear blue reflecting pools of mine
i want to tell you,
that though i am not easily ensnared,
when i look at you
i think
you may as well plunge your hand into my chest
rip my heart out
and eat it.

i think

we may as well
drown in each other, shutting out everything else.
and set our inner demons free.