the night i waited for you

it was an interesting one this night. then again, they all are some way or another.

how do i love thee, let me count the ways..
my friend sohair came over to visit with me that night. how i couldnt wait for you. so i made sure not to.

without word from you, i flung myself back again. the three argentinan boys were more than happy to comensate for your lack of appreciation. oh but let me tell you all about this night!

citron. short skirt. blue top. hair up.
sohair. a drink. cigarettes.
scoping. eyes on me. a pat on the seat next to him
pass by.
float back

have a seat with the smiling face.
exchange glances and a few words
before long the other comes to sit next to me
this side a hand up my shirt
that side a hand up my skirt
my feet up to rest in the crotch of the boy
across from me

see i promised id be easy bait tonight.
not just one, baby. three.

and a nauseous ride home later
three boys pleasuring my body
one left so dry, so voided, so emptied
from longing and an exhausting hopeless fight
that it drank of this. thirstily. hungrily.

foresaking you symbolically
for foresaking me

this is the way that i die at your hands
because i know in an alternate universe
im breaking bread with you
learning of your dreams
your desires.

manifesting them.

in another reality we are sitting together
talking of laughter. enjoying
good food and beautiful company,
watching
our inner souls reflected
in each others eyes.

maybe in this world,
if we -you- are lucky
we will create
that